Unlucky, I felt very unlucky today. Its just a feeling that really bothers me. The damage has been done and the choice has been chosen. Sometimes we sell our soul for the unknown facts. After hearing many facts of life its really hard to accept the facts. The friend I thought was a friend isn’t really a friend. After all they use your friendship and when they are done; you’re nothing more then dirt. They blow you away just like the wind breezing against your face. I knew this long time ago and promised myself never to fall for it. I broke my back because of it but still I fell into the trap.
I use smiles to cover my sadness. The other use coldness to produce a strong face. But in the end we have sold our soul way and broken promise as been develop.
after that I heard many other stories why but I still don’t believe it from the bottom of my heart. I listen to my heart. I heard this friend highly speaks of him/herself. She/he bought a fake marriage to get here. Though it fits into places but I don’t believe it till I hear it from the sources. Oh well…….Life moves on…..my 1 hour promise will never come true….I knew it from the beginning. I can only dream of it.
Today is Thursday and I promise to suck on these green Heineken bottles to forget about the promises of friendship. My heart was resurrected for a true friend for a moment in time and it was killed by the same friend…… That’s why I believe this journal and my internet friends are only friends who are true. When you’re hiding behind the mask you can speak yourself. I cheer to my friend and best the luck and wish them happiness for what ever they have chosen. Thank you for passing in my life and I will always remember this friend…..
Message to the friend if you’re still reading this:
I understand what you are doing and forgive you for doing so. I have given u my true words to you and promise to bring those promises to my heart till the day I die. What ever you have decide to do I’m always there for you and keeping supporting u forever. I forgive you. Continue being cold like you are…but I will always care silently. Those who I have loved, those who I have cared for will remains in me. U guys have create who I have become today. I will always be the guy doodling random pictures in the back. Like I have said at the beginning, popular girls and guys will never look at us. That’s just the rules of life. I forgive you..have a good day my friend.
Song for this Journal entry: Anh Không May Mắn -Châu Khải Phong