Man, what mess did I get my self into this time. Now I finally understand why many people warn me of making friends with marriage people. I guess I hear this often from my uncles and high school mates. In high school we use to be good friends hanging out everyday. But after they all have kids its difficult to gather together. I guess that’s just human nature.
I’m sitting here on my porch sucking on Heineken to forget time. You guys know how hard it is to get socialize again. I guess since I graduated high school I been on to many different jobs. Well not really, but its confidential, but I worked for myself since I graduated high school. I worked at Wendy’s for 1 week. Top Foods for 1 week. The rest are just in my pajamas and taking on long term projects doing computer programming. I never know how to socialize. All the people that I meet while working for years are super intelligent people. I thought I was good with computers but then meeting these guys challenged me to be better. My talents are being able to adapt, change, and challenges. I think that’s where I learned majority of my skills today. Working at DES is awesome as well. Majority of the time I know exactly what I’m doing but I cannot explain why. Therefore I begin to slack off so I don’t have to explain why this way is optimal .That’s the challenging at work. Prior years of experiences I did was sole execute. If I’m giving the ok to execute, I’ll execute it at all options to finish the job.
Moving onto how I feel at DES, The last 8 months at DES I felt lost. Lost because there’s no challenging group of staffs. I’m doing repeating tasks like a jail cell. I than met a cool friend. Apparently shes a girl! Asian are so small minded. Even though we’re raised in Western Culture but some Asians still carry the selfish act and mentality that once marriage you’re solely mine. I may be a moron at times but I’m not an idiot. I really like this friend, we often sat together and eat lunch and make fun of each other. It made life easier at work. Over the course of 43 days we became really good friend. I think I like her more than a friend but I know to the fact that shes marry and I’m marry so I kept the distance because I’m raise to respect others the way you wanted to be respected. We still talked like normal human friend. This bought me back to my moto “My Life here On Earth” . It gets challenging every day seeing new things. Sitting here crying as I write this. I finally know how tough it is. I hate being robots. I rather have fun and joke around to make our life at the State more Fun. What are boundaries? In my world, boundaries are the respect we give to one another and become best friends due to the respect, intelligence, and integrity. I’m just tired..so tired, my bones aren’t made for confrontations. I know its wrong to distance my new made friend because I kept a promise to change DES up. But I cannot hurt this friend……so this path is the hardest path I have to choose. Finding a good friend is hard. Finding jackass to become friends is everywhere. Meh..ok thats it for now.
sorry guys again, I haven’t update my journal lately due to being too busy or slacking. I’ll try try try my best to update this place more often.